Sunday, July 27, 2008

... don't lie to me...

So... today... i caught one of my inner 6's tale of deception... through a friend... his boyfriend...

this lie was pretty big... and not one i would ever tell...

ya know... i try to be honest with everything i do... i don't always succeed, but i do try, and when all is said and done... everyone knows everything about me...

all anyone really has to do is read this blog. i may not use names... but names aren't important here...

So... when one of my friends, or aquaintances makes a claim, i accept it as fact...

I somewhat know this person, and what they are saying could be true. Rarely do i ask for proof, even if i don't believe it. Because if it makes my friend happier, than fine... ... until i get involved. Be it in the lie, or the fact that believing in the lie gets me emotionally involved with you.

When i find out that something is a lie, if it's small "yeah... i really thought you were ugly in that dress, though i didn't say anything" well... i just don't care...

If it's big "yeah... i have 3 kids and a husband who all abuse me, i am getting fired from work, and I don't have anyone else to turn to... will you be my friend?" That's when i get pissed... especially when i find out that you aren't married, have no kids at all, and no job, because you're too lazy to get off your ass to go get one...!

Now... the truth and lie that were presented were only samples... that was not the lie i caught someone in... and i am sure he now knows i know his secret... but i have not confronted him on it... yet...

But i do this thing... where i have the whole confrontation in my head... talking back and forth to myself as to why someone would have had the audacity to commit such a falsehood...

For this... i came up with 30 reasons, none of them good or acceptable...

When i do confront him... and ofcourse i will... if he doesn't:

1. come clean with the truth
2. explain (satisfactorally) why he lied in the first place
3. present a convincing apology

Then that's it... no more... end of discussion... i hate to lose you, but if you can't respect me to tell me the truth, i certainly don't need or want you anymore. I tell everyone what's going on... probably more than anyone wants to hear... if you lie to me in return... and part of our friendship is based upon that lie... how could i ever trust you again... furthermore... how could i even like you anymore, when the traits that i like you, could also be based off of lies... whether or not they came out in the wash as well...

my devil's advocate was 100% right... people suck... and i am out of blood... and patience... and you... are out of time.

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