why?

it is known... throughout all of the friends that i talk to with any frequency, that i am mostly... TBH, (Tired, Bored and Horny)

One of my really good friends today suggested (as he has in thepast as well) that I just go out and hookup... when i mentioned, as i always do, that i don't do hookups... he mentioned that i should get over it... not the horniness... but the hangup about hookups...

well... i have had 4 friends in the past... all have the same perpetual horniness that I seem to suffer from... however... they are not afraid of hookups... (well... to be honest... i have more than 4... but this story concentrated on the 4 of them)

even though these 4 friends always practice safety... (ofcourse... i am not there to verify this) 3 have contracted hiv, one contracted Herpes, and the other contracted both. Supposedly, condoms were used, but it didn't stop the diseases...

I am paranoid about hookups... now don't get me wrong... i have nothing against people who hookup... i am just afraid that when i spin the wheel of hookups it will land on bankrupt or lose a turn... one other person i know... did a hookup from online and wound up getting robbed... granted... he wasn't the shiniest apple in the bushel... but still... that really did suck... and not the good way...

that's why i don't do hookups on a regular basis... or at all... while i would like to.. i guess that i am just too paranoid that something will happen... in the bad sense... i could get over it... but... do i really want to? I would rather have something more meaningful anyway... ofcourse... i have to get something more meaningful... and for that... at least in the gay world... most things start with a hookup... (sigh)