If there is one thing that never ceases to thoroughly and utterly piss me off, is the lack of respect people show from just… ignoring you.
This is a concept I just can't seem to grasp as to why anyone would do it. Just out of the blue… people just stop communicating… and it is infuriating.
This has been a pattern in my life that I am not sure just how it started, but it has been happening since I can remember… probably since I got out of high school is when I can remember it.
People introduce themselves into my life, for one reason or another, and build up a friendship/relationship. After a couple weeks, perhaps even a couple months, things seem to just go along fine, then, out of the blue, the other person disappears without a trace, ignores my phone calls, ignores my IMs, and just is plane gone.
My first reaction is always, I hope everything is okay, thinking that there may be a problem with their life… but then it just becomes obvious that the person in question, is purposefully ignoring me. I see them online in a chat room and than just disappear when I try to IM them. This then always leads me to wonder what I did wrong? I mean… I have my faults, and I have made PLENTY of mistakes in my life… but well… what happened? Why am I all of a sudden on the outs? When I try and find the answers, all I get is silence…
I am a big boy… my feelings can get hurt… but by just ignoring me, it shows me that you just don't have any respect for me. You would just rather I am not there, which makes me feel lower than nothing.
Well… I will just say one thing to these people who feel as though they don't have to confront their issues. Have a nice fuckin' life… You all need to reset your priorities if you want to live in the grown up world. Life is too short for me to have time for you back, and I am done all my wondering and worrying. I suggest you try and confronting issues and not just running from them, and in the mean time, if you have something to say to me, well GODS DAMNIT SAY IT. If you are afraid you will hurt me… I understand… but by ignoring me, you're doing more damage to me than you could by just slapping me in the face and telling me I am worthless… than at least I know that you don't like me.
If you are reading this… and you fit this profile of ignoring people… please… reconsider your position, at least when dealing with me. I will have much more respect for you and I will wish you all the best. Please don't hide like a coward… or be too lazy to confront your issues head on. You might just impress yourselves.
If you are reading this, most likely it's not about you… there are 3 people lately that have been ignoring me for no known reason (except to them) and well… they most likely wouldn't care to read this. Please just know… I would rather you tell me that you just don't like me and would wish I would die (if that's how you feel) than ignore me.
Have a nice day!
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