So... we all have bad days. Everyone has them... Even the people who seem to be perfectly perky all of the time have days when they are... not so fresh...
Today, was a down day for me. I found myself having anxiety attacks today. Never a fun thing, but i have had them none the less. *sigh*
All day i have been just thinking negative thoughts about myself.
One of my fleeting thoughts were... what happened if i just cut myself off from the world. stay offline, don't answer phone calls, except work (because i have to pay the bills) and an occasional call to my parents... to see if anyone would miss me.
Well... ofcourse some people would miss me... so after i talked myself out of that little self pity social experiment, I got to thinking...
Why do i choose to make myself miserable all the time? Am i truely happiest when i am miserable, self degrading and looking for pity? I mean... no-one, including me, would like to admit such a fallacy... but is it possible? ... Well ofcourse its possible, but is it true?
It seems like it that's the truth. *shrug* I didn't title this blog Self Induced Psychological Trauma because i liked the way it looked.
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*sigh* A man after my own heart. I have days like that too. *hugs*
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