I haven't written in a bit...

Here I am... looking at December... and I keep realizing that I haven't written... though I feel as though I should...

I attribute this current lack of consistency of writing due to the lack of consistency in my life as of late. Still not having a job, no set routine, and nothing really to follow, i find myself just mndlessly going from one task to another in an effort to stay busy.

All around me, my friends continue to fall apart... though it doesn't "SEEM" to be as tragic as the last time i have written, things do not seem to be getting better for anyone.

I have never been out of work this long in my life, and I am not quite ready for retirement. I hate being this unstructured... i feel as though my support is still rapidly collapsing around me...

I KNOW this will change... I am just waiting on corporate america to get off of its lazy ass to finally sign the contract or my temporary employment and than I can start working... while I KNOW it's happening, it seems as though, like so many other things in my life... what's too good to be true... normally is...

I hate the fact that I can take most other people's problems and solve them so quickly through decent insite, but cannot seem to solve my own, but as of late, even that ability seems to be fading, and i find myself saying more often than ever "I don't know what to tell you." usually followed by a frown or a look of grim sincerity.

It's rough... and pretty difficult... but I will manage...