I am frustrated... Very frustrated at a couple things at the moment...
I am sorry... I have to vent...
1. FOR THE LOVE OF THE FUCKING GODS!!! I AM NOT STRAIGHT... i wish my co-workers would stop trying to make me look at girls, talk about sexy girls, going to clubs where i can get "hot chicks, babes, or a piece of tail"
I am starting to think, i don't care if i tell them I am gay to make them uncomfortable... "I" am extremely uncomfortable during these conversations... I don't say anything... Do you think they would get the hint? no... they just keep fuckin talking... RRRAAAARRRRR!
2. The Ayer's Suites SUCKS... their free internet keeps messing with my computer... one moment i have an excellent signal, the next moment I am disconnected... WTF? I am writing this from the lobby, because the internet, wired or wireless does NOT work from my room...
jeff + no internet = PISSED OFF JEFF
3. A couple of my good friends, both current and from the past, have just kinda dropped off the face of the earth. I know they are around, because they are picking up my messages, but for some reason, are choosing not to acknowledge and return them... All I have to say, is that it's getting tiring trying to chase down people when I am running across country working. I do what I can to keep my friendships going.. People have dropped out of my life in the past, with no word as to what happened, just nothing.
I am the type of person who thives on communication, I know it gets annoying for people, but it's how I work. I like to know where I stand, and what's going on... If I did something wrong, I'd like to know about it...
One of my friends, who I seem to make plans with (at least try) on a regular basis, seems to stand me up. Standing me up does not mean that he cannot make it... It means the day before, day of, and a couple days after, I hear nothing. My phone calls go unanswered, my text messages go un returned, emails, chat... nothing... I will hear from him like 2 - 3 weeks later, and when i bring it up that I thought something went wrong or that he was avoiding me, he assures me that it wasn't me and that something else came up...
I understand that things come up... but please give me the courtesy of a phone call, a note, txt message, etc... I think I am a pretty understanding guy... I never get mad at people for cancelling on me if they let me know... but this routine, is getting a little old and very frustrating... It's happened on 4 recallable instances. Maybe once or twice that I cannot remember...
He knows I love him, despite this... but, as i said, it's getting old, and I am just kinda running out of energy. He's not the only one that that pulls this routine... I seem to get it from most of my friends... not all... but most...
I guess I am getting old enough to start expecting a little more. My Birthday incident, getting stood up for dates, all of it... I am pretty soon just going to shut down and become a hermit.
Or maybe i shouldn't expect more... maybe I am being treated exactly how i deserve to be treated... it's always happening to me afterall.. i don't think it happens to anyone else on the same frequency of occurances.
I am trying to stay away from the whole self pity thing... but i have to say, this kinda makes me feel downright insignificant.
I am done writing for the night... i am too tired to care for the moment.
later
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
ugh...
it's just about 7pm PST... I am here in my hotel room, just back from dinner.. I have been up since 4am... because i can't seem to get my ass moving in the morning... i move S L O W...
My head is pounding... and i left my tylenol at home... If i had any semblance of intelligence, I would have picked some up at the store when i went to go get my water and juice for the week...
but no...
instead, i thought i would just write about it, as my head silently throbs into oblivion...
My body is telling me... "get your ass to bed..."
My mind is telling me... "if you do, you know we will be up at 2, and not able to go back to sleep"
It's times like this, that make me glad I am alive!
And how was your day? *blink*
My head is pounding... and i left my tylenol at home... If i had any semblance of intelligence, I would have picked some up at the store when i went to go get my water and juice for the week...
but no...
instead, i thought i would just write about it, as my head silently throbs into oblivion...
My body is telling me... "get your ass to bed..."
My mind is telling me... "if you do, you know we will be up at 2, and not able to go back to sleep"
It's times like this, that make me glad I am alive!
And how was your day? *blink*
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Was Tired of it, now, just tired!!!!
it's 4am... only 1am on West Coast time, where my body has adjusted, but i am in atlanta...
i wasn't very tired when i went to bed tonight... eyes were kinda dry and tired, but ultimately, i wasn't very sleepy...
so i popped on my laptop and decided to check my myspace and leave some messages, etc... and around 3:30 i decided to just try and shut my eyes...
WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOO WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOO WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOO
yup... the @&#!&*^%!* FIRE ALARM went off... right as I was about to sleep... i was thinking, perhaps i should just burn... but then i thought... no... better to be safe than sorry. So, i got outta the bed, got dressed and went to the lobby...
it ended up being a false alarm... but here i am ... 4:12am, wide awake... writing in my blog to you fine people... when i should be sleeping and seein if that guy from my dream the other night will come back...
stupid @!^*&%!^#%!*&$!^#*!&^%# fire alarm!
i wasn't very tired when i went to bed tonight... eyes were kinda dry and tired, but ultimately, i wasn't very sleepy...
so i popped on my laptop and decided to check my myspace and leave some messages, etc... and around 3:30 i decided to just try and shut my eyes...
WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOO WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOO WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOO
yup... the @&#!&*^%!* FIRE ALARM went off... right as I was about to sleep... i was thinking, perhaps i should just burn... but then i thought... no... better to be safe than sorry. So, i got outta the bed, got dressed and went to the lobby...
it ended up being a false alarm... but here i am ... 4:12am, wide awake... writing in my blog to you fine people... when i should be sleeping and seein if that guy from my dream the other night will come back...
stupid @!^*&%!^#%!*&$!^#*!&^%# fire alarm!
Friday, April 25, 2008
Tired of it!
yup... I am tired of looking for that one special someone... I changed all of my online profiles from "looking" to "contact me if you want"
i have kinda had a 'meh' attitude lately, towards everything... the shrink says it's the bi-polar based depression. No matter what it is, i am tired of running after people and getting no where...
So... I am going to stop running, even walking towards people that i am interested in, because, i am no longer interested. If they are interested, they have to find me. If I am interested back, i will make them aware, if not, then, i will just let them know...
either way, i am tired of the game. I need a breather.
i have kinda had a 'meh' attitude lately, towards everything... the shrink says it's the bi-polar based depression. No matter what it is, i am tired of running after people and getting no where...
So... I am going to stop running, even walking towards people that i am interested in, because, i am no longer interested. If they are interested, they have to find me. If I am interested back, i will make them aware, if not, then, i will just let them know...
either way, i am tired of the game. I need a breather.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
See... I told you!!!
This is the building i work in... (I can't take pictures of inside ofcourse... but the outside is fine
NOT a FRIGGIN WINDOW!
To dream the impossible dream
For those who know me, and have discussed this subject with me, you may (or may not) know that I have been feeling extremely un-loveable over the last several weeks. I just don't seem to like myself enough to let someone else do more than like me... (i used to think the whole love yourself thing was just a crock... it turns out, it's not)
Last night, I kept waking up as usual, normally I have 4 different dreams, sometimes 2 dreams are similar, but different enough to make them distinct... but last night, I had 4 of the same dream... different settings, but the premise was the same...
I was invited to this get together, one i didn't really feel like going to, but 2 of my friends (dream friends, not real ones) begged me to go. I knew people there (for some reason, it was focused around my old highschool band... (don't ask))
Everyone, and I mean everyone was coupled there, except me. I tried to talk to people, but they, for the most part, kept ignoring me, and talked amongst themselves. Then, one of the friends who pulled me there, told me to look at the door and there was one other single person there...
He had on Jeans, a gray t-shirt with some sort of design on it, thin, dark hair and UGLY UGLY UGLY coke bottle glasses. Dark leopard print and glasses so thick it looks like it made his eyes cross. He was a nerd, plain and simple... At first glance, I was like... "that's what you were pointing at?" But he seemed shy and awkward as well, standing by the corner... So I walked over to say hi.
He was a really nice guy, and then he took off his glasses for some reason and OMFG... he was beautiful. Had the most gorgeous blue/green eyes i had ever seen, and I heard the violins playing as if this was the one... He seemed to feel the same way about me as he reached for my hand and said, "I hope it's okay that i don't let go"
A romantic too... all other feelings kinda rushed away then i woke up...
The following dreams were similar social settings, and he always found me, (i didn't find him...) Either coming up and hugging me from behind, kissing me on the cheek as I was looking the other way... and doing the holding his hand over my eyes and making me guess who he was. Then holding my hand the rest of the time and talking to me for what seemed like hours. Always the same guy, always started out with the same ugly glasses, then taking them off and being absolutely beautiful again, like the first time we met.
I kinda felt what it was to truely be in love. I have had dreams like this before, and I believe I even wrote about a couple of them in the blog, but this one seemed different...I never did get his name, but it didn't seem important...
Anyone with dream interpretation skills care to interpret? My thinking is... it was just a dream. (well 4 of them) and not to dwell on it. Still... 4 dreams, 4 times i woke up, 4 times the same guy (after the first time) looking for me. Each time I woke up, i felt warm and fuzzy, like i was in love. In love with a dream guy.
Last night, I kept waking up as usual, normally I have 4 different dreams, sometimes 2 dreams are similar, but different enough to make them distinct... but last night, I had 4 of the same dream... different settings, but the premise was the same...
I was invited to this get together, one i didn't really feel like going to, but 2 of my friends (dream friends, not real ones) begged me to go. I knew people there (for some reason, it was focused around my old highschool band... (don't ask))
Everyone, and I mean everyone was coupled there, except me. I tried to talk to people, but they, for the most part, kept ignoring me, and talked amongst themselves. Then, one of the friends who pulled me there, told me to look at the door and there was one other single person there...
He had on Jeans, a gray t-shirt with some sort of design on it, thin, dark hair and UGLY UGLY UGLY coke bottle glasses. Dark leopard print and glasses so thick it looks like it made his eyes cross. He was a nerd, plain and simple... At first glance, I was like... "that's what you were pointing at?" But he seemed shy and awkward as well, standing by the corner... So I walked over to say hi.
He was a really nice guy, and then he took off his glasses for some reason and OMFG... he was beautiful. Had the most gorgeous blue/green eyes i had ever seen, and I heard the violins playing as if this was the one... He seemed to feel the same way about me as he reached for my hand and said, "I hope it's okay that i don't let go"
A romantic too... all other feelings kinda rushed away then i woke up...
The following dreams were similar social settings, and he always found me, (i didn't find him...) Either coming up and hugging me from behind, kissing me on the cheek as I was looking the other way... and doing the holding his hand over my eyes and making me guess who he was. Then holding my hand the rest of the time and talking to me for what seemed like hours. Always the same guy, always started out with the same ugly glasses, then taking them off and being absolutely beautiful again, like the first time we met.
I kinda felt what it was to truely be in love. I have had dreams like this before, and I believe I even wrote about a couple of them in the blog, but this one seemed different...I never did get his name, but it didn't seem important...
Anyone with dream interpretation skills care to interpret? My thinking is... it was just a dream. (well 4 of them) and not to dwell on it. Still... 4 dreams, 4 times i woke up, 4 times the same guy (after the first time) looking for me. Each time I woke up, i felt warm and fuzzy, like i was in love. In love with a dream guy.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Hostile Work Environment
Okay... so... I don't mind my job as far as tasks... this current assignment is a little boring (I am writing a migration strategy to move data from one system to another... how fuckin' fun is that?)
But there are 4 things that kinda make this job a bit more hostile than anything else...
1. The office... The area around corona is sooo beautiful, sun, constant breeze, warm and just generally pleasant... The building I work in... has NO, and let me repeat, NO windows with the exception of the ones on the entrance doors... NO OTHER PLACE in this building has windows... NONE!!! Just flourescent lighting... which gives me a headache... The other thing, about this wonderful marvel of architecture, is that the office that i am sitting in, is the office for all of the IT consultants... so there are like 12 of us in there... It's fairly sized so we aren't cramped... but the air conditioner/air circulation system does not work...
The AIR CONDITIONER/AIR CIRCULATION SYSTEM in the room DOES NOT WORK!!! So it's hot, with all of the computers running, it's got stale air because there is no circulation, no windows to get the hint of atmosphere, flourescent lighting which gives me headaches, and god-damned, motherfuckin other consultants who insist on having their cell phones set to ring tones, that are LIKE SOOOOOOO LOUD, especially when they walk out of the room and leave their phone there ringing and ringing and ringing and ringing and ringing.... on some fuckin song, that no-one but them likes...
FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY OR UNHOLY (whichever you prefer) TURN YOUR CELL PHONE TO VIBRATE OR I AM GONNA THROW IT AGAINST THE FUCKING WALL NEXT TIME IT RINGS!!!!!!!!!
aaaahh... that felt better... and that... was number 1...
2. my name... so... i have been working for this company right, and we all have to have accounts on the system right... well... the yahoos who executed the helpdesk ticket forgot the "L" in my last name... that's right... I have no L in my last name... and it's kinda driving me insane that i have to send out emails and such with no L in my name... logging in with no L in my name... and they said they can't fix it... that's right ladies and gentlemen... they can't fix my account name and put an L in it... I was told that it's not that big of a deal, and just live with it... *sigh* I think i am gonna change my last name to smith... let's see if they fuck that up...
3. The co-workers I am working with from CSC are nice, but they have this need to do everything together... lunch, dinner, etc... all together... like no free time... at all... The project manager, insists that we all drive to work together and carpool... that's fine... (i mean, we are all at work from the same hotel right?) but this guy doesn't leave until late... so 5:00 I am ready to go... and at 5:45 he's still typing emails... and we are stuck... and he's oblivious... when we drive ourselves... he's kinda hurt by it... though more and more... i am insisting that i drive myself...
4. Finally... and this has to do with the co-workers as well... is that they are Very VERY straight... and while I am very NOT, i kinda am hardpressed to tell them i am not. I know that my company has a policy of non-discrimination against sexual orientation (I looked it up) but that doesn't mean it doesn't happen. If i start telling them that, "No, I did not see that girl across the street, because I was actually looking at this gorgeous latino guy walking towards us" I think they would freak... cause un-nessecary tension amongst the team dynamic. I would be un-officially branded as a shit starter, and not work on projects anymore... In the mean time, I can't find anyone that's out... not in the company I work for, nor in the companies I work at...
Now... if anyone asked me if I was gay, my policy is not to hide it... if they didn't want to know... they wouldn't have asked... and if they don't like the answer... FUCKIN' TOUGH... You shouldn't have asked....
The problem is... I am the one stuck suffering... agreeing or disagreeing to these girl comments, "if you had a wife... blah blah blah..." I never lie... i just usually do one of my patented "hmmm" grunts and don't acknowledge the comment any further. I mean... come on... take the hint already... I am not interested in girls, so stop asking me about them... and no... I am not interested in you either... So you don't have to worry about that... I wear my pride rings on my ring finger... I am waiting for someone to ask me what they are... I would feel very sorry for them if they asked me while in the office and some other inconsiderate fuck has HIS FUCKING CELL PHONE RINGING AT 500 DECIBALS AND IS IGNORING IT... TURN THE FUCKIN THING OFF BEFORE I SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS THAT YOU WILL HAVE TO FART TO ANSWER IT!
*sigh*
love always...
p.s. if i do end up in jail... someone please show this to the judge and help plea my case for insanity... Thanks
But there are 4 things that kinda make this job a bit more hostile than anything else...
1. The office... The area around corona is sooo beautiful, sun, constant breeze, warm and just generally pleasant... The building I work in... has NO, and let me repeat, NO windows with the exception of the ones on the entrance doors... NO OTHER PLACE in this building has windows... NONE!!! Just flourescent lighting... which gives me a headache... The other thing, about this wonderful marvel of architecture, is that the office that i am sitting in, is the office for all of the IT consultants... so there are like 12 of us in there... It's fairly sized so we aren't cramped... but the air conditioner/air circulation system does not work...
The AIR CONDITIONER/AIR CIRCULATION SYSTEM in the room DOES NOT WORK!!! So it's hot, with all of the computers running, it's got stale air because there is no circulation, no windows to get the hint of atmosphere, flourescent lighting which gives me headaches, and god-damned, motherfuckin other consultants who insist on having their cell phones set to ring tones, that are LIKE SOOOOOOO LOUD, especially when they walk out of the room and leave their phone there ringing and ringing and ringing and ringing and ringing.... on some fuckin song, that no-one but them likes...
FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY OR UNHOLY (whichever you prefer) TURN YOUR CELL PHONE TO VIBRATE OR I AM GONNA THROW IT AGAINST THE FUCKING WALL NEXT TIME IT RINGS!!!!!!!!!
aaaahh... that felt better... and that... was number 1...
2. my name... so... i have been working for this company right, and we all have to have accounts on the system right... well... the yahoos who executed the helpdesk ticket forgot the "L" in my last name... that's right... I have no L in my last name... and it's kinda driving me insane that i have to send out emails and such with no L in my name... logging in with no L in my name... and they said they can't fix it... that's right ladies and gentlemen... they can't fix my account name and put an L in it... I was told that it's not that big of a deal, and just live with it... *sigh* I think i am gonna change my last name to smith... let's see if they fuck that up...
3. The co-workers I am working with from CSC are nice, but they have this need to do everything together... lunch, dinner, etc... all together... like no free time... at all... The project manager, insists that we all drive to work together and carpool... that's fine... (i mean, we are all at work from the same hotel right?) but this guy doesn't leave until late... so 5:00 I am ready to go... and at 5:45 he's still typing emails... and we are stuck... and he's oblivious... when we drive ourselves... he's kinda hurt by it... though more and more... i am insisting that i drive myself...
4. Finally... and this has to do with the co-workers as well... is that they are Very VERY straight... and while I am very NOT, i kinda am hardpressed to tell them i am not. I know that my company has a policy of non-discrimination against sexual orientation (I looked it up) but that doesn't mean it doesn't happen. If i start telling them that, "No, I did not see that girl across the street, because I was actually looking at this gorgeous latino guy walking towards us" I think they would freak... cause un-nessecary tension amongst the team dynamic. I would be un-officially branded as a shit starter, and not work on projects anymore... In the mean time, I can't find anyone that's out... not in the company I work for, nor in the companies I work at...
Now... if anyone asked me if I was gay, my policy is not to hide it... if they didn't want to know... they wouldn't have asked... and if they don't like the answer... FUCKIN' TOUGH... You shouldn't have asked....
The problem is... I am the one stuck suffering... agreeing or disagreeing to these girl comments, "if you had a wife... blah blah blah..." I never lie... i just usually do one of my patented "hmmm" grunts and don't acknowledge the comment any further. I mean... come on... take the hint already... I am not interested in girls, so stop asking me about them... and no... I am not interested in you either... So you don't have to worry about that... I wear my pride rings on my ring finger... I am waiting for someone to ask me what they are... I would feel very sorry for them if they asked me while in the office and some other inconsiderate fuck has HIS FUCKING CELL PHONE RINGING AT 500 DECIBALS AND IS IGNORING IT... TURN THE FUCKIN THING OFF BEFORE I SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS THAT YOU WILL HAVE TO FART TO ANSWER IT!
*sigh*
love always...
p.s. if i do end up in jail... someone please show this to the judge and help plea my case for insanity... Thanks
i have found the meaning of life!!!!
Let me step outside to tell you a little secret I have learned...
Okay... The secre *cough cough hack choke * california smog *cough cough hack choke passout*
*wakes up a minute later*
Who am I?
Okay... The secre *cough cough hack choke * california smog *cough cough hack choke passout*
*wakes up a minute later*
Who am I?
i have found the meaning of life!!!!
Let me step outside to tell you a little secret I have learned...
Okay... The secre *cough cough hack choke * california smog *cough cough hack choke passout*
*wakes up a minute later*
Who am I?
Okay... The secre *cough cough hack choke * california smog *cough cough hack choke passout*
*wakes up a minute later*
Who am I?
Monday, April 21, 2008
...
i actually had a bunch of funny things i wanted to write earlier... i did, but i am just kinda in a miserable mood at the moment...
i kinda have life figured out... well... i always do/did... it's these somber moments when i know it's just me vs. world when i see just what I am doing wrong... I even know what the fixes are!!! just some things are easier said (or typed) than done.
i kinda have life figured out... well... i always do/did... it's these somber moments when i know it's just me vs. world when i see just what I am doing wrong... I even know what the fixes are!!! just some things are easier said (or typed) than done.
Lessons Learned from this weekend
I learned a couple things this weekend... I thought I would share
1. If you are going to go out, looking for something to do in a new city, KNOW WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR... I spent hours driving around with no destination... thank god i have a PRIUS (which i hate btw) so i didn't worry about gas... Was I looking for a hangout, entertainment or something? I don't know, because i never found it!!!
2. There are guys that still exist with the surfer accent, and i have to say, it made him that much hotter, though totally straight (his girlfriend showed up when I saw him)
3. Rednecks are everywhere... I decided I was hungry late last night and was looking for something cheap and kinda small... So i went to McDs for a cheeseburger, and i stood behind 2 VERY rednecks, with the redneck accent talkin about cars, showing each other tatoos (yes... in the store) and playing some sort of punching game... (one register open and I was like 5th in line)
4. The beach, even though it might not be crowded is AWESOME, parking is NOT (at least in laguna) I was driving and driving and driving to find a parking space to get to the coast line. There was mostly none. What kind of beach doesn't have $5/hr parking lots or something? Laguna... they have meters all over the place, but none next to a beach entrance, only at the store strips. When I did find parking and went down to the water though, aaaaaaahhh (Yes, it was friggin freezing, but worth it to put my feet in the pacific!)
I still rate california as eh...
1. If you are going to go out, looking for something to do in a new city, KNOW WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR... I spent hours driving around with no destination... thank god i have a PRIUS (which i hate btw) so i didn't worry about gas... Was I looking for a hangout, entertainment or something? I don't know, because i never found it!!!
2. There are guys that still exist with the surfer accent, and i have to say, it made him that much hotter, though totally straight (his girlfriend showed up when I saw him)
3. Rednecks are everywhere... I decided I was hungry late last night and was looking for something cheap and kinda small... So i went to McDs for a cheeseburger, and i stood behind 2 VERY rednecks, with the redneck accent talkin about cars, showing each other tatoos (yes... in the store) and playing some sort of punching game... (one register open and I was like 5th in line)
4. The beach, even though it might not be crowded is AWESOME, parking is NOT (at least in laguna) I was driving and driving and driving to find a parking space to get to the coast line. There was mostly none. What kind of beach doesn't have $5/hr parking lots or something? Laguna... they have meters all over the place, but none next to a beach entrance, only at the store strips. When I did find parking and went down to the water though, aaaaaaahhh (Yes, it was friggin freezing, but worth it to put my feet in the pacific!)
I still rate california as eh...
Saturday, April 19, 2008
stupid feelings... who needs them anyway!
So... since i got here in california, and noticed that there is a whirlpool tub in my room... I have wanted to use it... ahhh... to have a whirlpool bath... i love them...
so... all week i "felt" like taking a whirlpool bath... I thought... let me wait until the weekend... it would be a nice treat...
so... i finished talking to a couple friends on IM and decided to draw my bath... its a garden tub... so it took a lot of time to fill up, but i thought... hey... it's worth it...
So... the tub is full, and i turn on the jets... (a little loud... but i can deal with that...) and i lowered myself in the hot bath...
I wasn't "feeling" it... i ended up getting antsy... i couldn't friggin' relax, the noise of the jets started getting to me... and after about 5 minutes... i just wanted out of there...
ALL WEEK i was looking forward to this... and then... i just wasn't feeling the love... so... i got out, dried off, drained the bathtub, and cursed myself for "feeling" like taking a whirlpool bath...
@%&!%*!!&#%!@#!!!
so... all week i "felt" like taking a whirlpool bath... I thought... let me wait until the weekend... it would be a nice treat...
so... i finished talking to a couple friends on IM and decided to draw my bath... its a garden tub... so it took a lot of time to fill up, but i thought... hey... it's worth it...
So... the tub is full, and i turn on the jets... (a little loud... but i can deal with that...) and i lowered myself in the hot bath...
I wasn't "feeling" it... i ended up getting antsy... i couldn't friggin' relax, the noise of the jets started getting to me... and after about 5 minutes... i just wanted out of there...
ALL WEEK i was looking forward to this... and then... i just wasn't feeling the love... so... i got out, dried off, drained the bathtub, and cursed myself for "feeling" like taking a whirlpool bath...
@%&!%*!!&#%!@#!!!
Friday, April 18, 2008
California ain't all that
I was looking around yesterday at California. The area, the people, the attitudes...
I have to say, i am not impressed. I have been to cali before, but usually for just a couple days here and there... ultimately, my ruling on it is.
meh
I could see myself living here, but no real desire to... At lease that's the ruling on Corona... I don't know (STILL) what I will be doing this weekend, my attitude could change, we will see...
I am just not feelin the california dreamin...
I have to say, i am not impressed. I have been to cali before, but usually for just a couple days here and there... ultimately, my ruling on it is.
meh
I could see myself living here, but no real desire to... At lease that's the ruling on Corona... I don't know (STILL) what I will be doing this weekend, my attitude could change, we will see...
I am just not feelin the california dreamin...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Disasterous Dream, but not a nightmare...
So... I had a bad dream, but not one I woke up to screaming to or anything...
I had dreamt that there were, really bad storms in atlanta. Hurricanes and tornados, and it was ripping off the tops of some of the towers in the area (like the top 20 floors of the buildings) and tossing them aside... 2 of these tops of buildings fell on my condo complex taking the top 8 floors of my building and the whole parking deck. This essentially meant that my condo was fine but several of my friends were killed, those who were in the building, others that were out came back to find that everything they owned was gone.
Well... obviously, especially since I am in a hotel away from home, I woke up several times, but every time i went back to sleep, it was the same exact dream... just progressed. (and i woke up like 11 times as per usual) I am not sure what this means...
A couple of my friends i invited to stay in my spare bedroom, (somehow the building was still inhabitable (with power and everything) changing the room around to accomidate 3 people. I had gotten a phone call from my mom who protested that i bring anyone to live with me. I was kinda annoyed as i had people who were in real trouble needing help, and she didn't want me to give them any...
Anyway, as all dreams do, it warped so that I was still living in my condo... but it ended up being my parents basement (where i used to reside) Still helping out friends... I just thought the whole dream was... odd...
I had dreamt that there were, really bad storms in atlanta. Hurricanes and tornados, and it was ripping off the tops of some of the towers in the area (like the top 20 floors of the buildings) and tossing them aside... 2 of these tops of buildings fell on my condo complex taking the top 8 floors of my building and the whole parking deck. This essentially meant that my condo was fine but several of my friends were killed, those who were in the building, others that were out came back to find that everything they owned was gone.
Well... obviously, especially since I am in a hotel away from home, I woke up several times, but every time i went back to sleep, it was the same exact dream... just progressed. (and i woke up like 11 times as per usual) I am not sure what this means...
A couple of my friends i invited to stay in my spare bedroom, (somehow the building was still inhabitable (with power and everything) changing the room around to accomidate 3 people. I had gotten a phone call from my mom who protested that i bring anyone to live with me. I was kinda annoyed as i had people who were in real trouble needing help, and she didn't want me to give them any...
Anyway, as all dreams do, it warped so that I was still living in my condo... but it ended up being my parents basement (where i used to reside) Still helping out friends... I just thought the whole dream was... odd...
Monday, April 14, 2008
Day one of California
Well... so far it has been an interesting trip...
After much persistance on the weekend i was able to change my seat from a middle to an aisle!!! WOOT!!!
I borded the plane with my usual morning enthusiasm, to find out, that I was surrounded by kids... 3 in the row in front of me, 2 in my row on the other side of the aisle, and 3 right behind me...
For the first half of the flight, they were okay... watching movies and an occasional little kid scream or giggle to the movie... i can understand and respect that... no problem............
Then about half way through the trip... the little fuckers started to get restless and talking and whining and crying and screaming... UGH!!!!!!
Then it happened... I was breathing, like i normally do, when i noticed a very fowl stench in the air... I was like... oh please gods NOOOOOO!!!!! The little girl sitting in front of me, apparently needed to be changed... and i was trying to be nice and not tell the parents that their little daughter took a shit and STINKS!!! I figured they would just catch a whif right? They did, after 10 minutes... ugh...
and no sooner they came back with that little bizbag, the other one went... and once again... she wasn't changed till we got off the plane... i mean seriously... what is it with these people?
So... I got off the plane and went to get my luggage (i had to check a bag in since i am staying 2 weeks.) and went to go get my car... They tried to give me a land yacht... i said... thank you... but i would like a smaller car... they didn't have any, but they told me to wait, because some were due back... after 10 minutes of waiting, i said "look... just give me the smallest car you have"
Well... they did... A Toyota Prius... and all I have to say is... WTF!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
I have been driving since I was 16 years old... and I could not for the life of me figure out how to get this car working... I turned it on after i put the remote control in the slot... (no key) and tried to back out, but the car wouldn't get out of neutral... WTF? I tried and tried and tried... finally, i pushed the "Power Button again, and the car turned off... in the mean time, i am half hanging out of the parking space in the lane where rental cars are returned, not the best place to be...
So... i hit the Power button again, and it came on and would let me use the dashboard gear switcher... Yes... it's not on the steering column... not in between the 2 front seats... it's a little joystick on the dashboard.
So... I finally got the hang of driving... so i start making my way out of the parking garage and the car starts violently beeping at me... "BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP... I SAID BEEEP BIATCH! BEEP BEEP"
Not a single warning, no error message, my break wasn't on... my seatbelt was on... i am yelling at the car... WHAT IS IT YOU WANT? eventually the beeping just stopped.
I found my way to work and got to meet my new project manager and the Project manager from the pharma company... it was nice... Until i left and got back in the car... and the same thing happened!!! First time i started up, i couldn't get the car out of neutral, the second time... no problem, then 3 minutes after driving (on the road) BEEP BEEP BEEP for like 40 seconds until i said "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" then it beeped 3 more times, then shut up...
California is gonna be a real treat!
After much persistance on the weekend i was able to change my seat from a middle to an aisle!!! WOOT!!!
I borded the plane with my usual morning enthusiasm, to find out, that I was surrounded by kids... 3 in the row in front of me, 2 in my row on the other side of the aisle, and 3 right behind me...
For the first half of the flight, they were okay... watching movies and an occasional little kid scream or giggle to the movie... i can understand and respect that... no problem............
Then about half way through the trip... the little fuckers started to get restless and talking and whining and crying and screaming... UGH!!!!!!
Then it happened... I was breathing, like i normally do, when i noticed a very fowl stench in the air... I was like... oh please gods NOOOOOO!!!!! The little girl sitting in front of me, apparently needed to be changed... and i was trying to be nice and not tell the parents that their little daughter took a shit and STINKS!!! I figured they would just catch a whif right? They did, after 10 minutes... ugh...
and no sooner they came back with that little bizbag, the other one went... and once again... she wasn't changed till we got off the plane... i mean seriously... what is it with these people?
So... I got off the plane and went to get my luggage (i had to check a bag in since i am staying 2 weeks.) and went to go get my car... They tried to give me a land yacht... i said... thank you... but i would like a smaller car... they didn't have any, but they told me to wait, because some were due back... after 10 minutes of waiting, i said "look... just give me the smallest car you have"
Well... they did... A Toyota Prius... and all I have to say is... WTF!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
I have been driving since I was 16 years old... and I could not for the life of me figure out how to get this car working... I turned it on after i put the remote control in the slot... (no key) and tried to back out, but the car wouldn't get out of neutral... WTF? I tried and tried and tried... finally, i pushed the "Power Button again, and the car turned off... in the mean time, i am half hanging out of the parking space in the lane where rental cars are returned, not the best place to be...
So... i hit the Power button again, and it came on and would let me use the dashboard gear switcher... Yes... it's not on the steering column... not in between the 2 front seats... it's a little joystick on the dashboard.
So... I finally got the hang of driving... so i start making my way out of the parking garage and the car starts violently beeping at me... "BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP... I SAID BEEEP BIATCH! BEEP BEEP"
Not a single warning, no error message, my break wasn't on... my seatbelt was on... i am yelling at the car... WHAT IS IT YOU WANT? eventually the beeping just stopped.
I found my way to work and got to meet my new project manager and the Project manager from the pharma company... it was nice... Until i left and got back in the car... and the same thing happened!!! First time i started up, i couldn't get the car out of neutral, the second time... no problem, then 3 minutes after driving (on the road) BEEP BEEP BEEP for like 40 seconds until i said "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" then it beeped 3 more times, then shut up...
California is gonna be a real treat!
Friday, April 11, 2008
long overdue... but still a little difficult to do
One of the games I have played for, well... a VERY long time I have finally cancelled my account and said a fond farewell to forever...
My Everquest account, which I have had for, hmm... 8 years? Maybe 9? I have decided to cancel as I do not play it anymore...
I have had some really REALLY fun times with everquest... Running a guild of gay characters (mystic alliance), the raids, the scavenger hunt, the message boards, it was, needless to say, very awesome. My characters
Celan Moonview
Nineteen Dragonsongs
Gollee Geewhiz
Eugeene Froggy
will be missed, (all of the other characters I didn't really play much! =p)
just time to close the EQ chapter of my life... I thought it at least deserved a blog! To all of those who knew those characters, I have been assured that they will miss you too!
anyway... that's all for the moment...
My Everquest account, which I have had for, hmm... 8 years? Maybe 9? I have decided to cancel as I do not play it anymore...
I have had some really REALLY fun times with everquest... Running a guild of gay characters (mystic alliance), the raids, the scavenger hunt, the message boards, it was, needless to say, very awesome. My characters
Celan Moonview
Nineteen Dragonsongs
Gollee Geewhiz
Eugeene Froggy
will be missed, (all of the other characters I didn't really play much! =p)
just time to close the EQ chapter of my life... I thought it at least deserved a blog! To all of those who knew those characters, I have been assured that they will miss you too!
anyway... that's all for the moment...
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Next Assignment
I was just told today, My Next assignment will start next week and I will be traveling to Corona California. I was just told this this afternoon, and so I am a little behind the curve with my travel arrangements and such... But this should be good I think...
My medicis co-worker Sanjay said "how is it you got another sunny assignment?"
*shrug* beginner's luck I guess...
I don't know the details of the assignment, but I am sure i will hear VERY SOON!
My medicis co-worker Sanjay said "how is it you got another sunny assignment?"
*shrug* beginner's luck I guess...
I don't know the details of the assignment, but I am sure i will hear VERY SOON!
Monday, April 7, 2008
Peaches!!!
Yup... i did it... from 11am till 8:00pm i was making these little friggers!!!
I did it with no help from anyone else either... 5 dozen of hand made peaches!!!
for those of you who don't know what these are, and are perhaps wondering why they take so long... let me fill you in!
First, you have to buy special Cast Aluminum Pans, which, I only know of one place in existance that sells them (http://www.fantes.com/peach-cakes.html)
So... they are simple yellow foodcake, being made in these molds, which HAVE to be washed each and every time they are reused to prevent sticking...
Once the little bastards are done, and they are cooled (and hopefully, if you are intelligent, you have already made COOKED vanilla pudding and it's cooled) you hollow these cakes out to put in some pudding, and an almond for the peach pit.
Then, they are sprayed with Peach Brandy miced with a little foodcoloring.. then rolled in sugar, sprayed again with some red foodcoloring and add a mint leaf for the peach effect...
They are delicious... and just a TON of steps so they take a long time... but each is made with love... (at least the first couple were... the rest were made with cursing and muttering under my breath the whole time)
hehe... just kidding... it was a lot of work, but if you get a chance... come by and get one!!! mmmmmm
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Frustration
So, on Feb 1 i purchased a t-mobile blackberry. it works great and I am happy with the purchase.
When I purchased it, I was convinced by the sales agent to purchase insurance, which, normally i never do, however, the blackberry is $350, so i thought, I would get it and keep it for a couple months, just to make sure nothing is wrong with it. I don't want to have to get a new one afterall... I also asked for a 1 year subscription to the number. I don't like being tied to a service at all, let alone for 2 years...
So... My blackberry, which I always keep in the pouch, is cracking. Not the screen, but the top 2 corners, whole chips are coming out and needless to say, I thought I would trade it in to get a new one.
That's when I called customer service (about porting one of my cell numbers to a land line) and I just happened to ask whether or not i have insurance. Come to find out, I did not!!! I was asked to get the reciept, which, surprisingly, I kept in the box. As it turns out, the guy, who apparently doesn't work there anymore, didn't sell me insurance!!! Not only that, the bastard renewed me for 2 years, and gave me the upgrade price for 1 year...
I was furious, but ofcourse, I didn't unleash my fury on the (very pleasant and peppy for 9am) customer service rep. She mentioned that I go back to the store and talk with the manager. I asked her if she thought that would help, she was optimistic as she has done that same thing before, and they were very friendly about it.
So... I went back to the store, I took my phone, and asked immediately (but in a pleasant tone) to speak with the store manager. "Oh, he only comes in on Saturdays" was the response i got back.... ... Saturdays huh? I was NOT happy. However, i asked if there was anything they could do, and they said that they help customers with problems all the time (2 of them). When i explained my dillema, they said that there is nothing that the store manager could do, other than to tell me to call customer service. I had mentioned that i had already called customer service and that they mentioned to go to the store. They didn't seem phased by this, repeated that there is nothing that they, or the store manager could do, and that I am "out of luck"
I walked out (i couldn't complain to the store manager who was not there!) and I went home and called customer service again. I, once again, explained everything to them and they apologized for the inconvienence, and advised me to register a formal complaint, which I normally never do, but I made an exception in this case.
*note to self* never go to a tmobile store, and ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS review the contract...
When I purchased it, I was convinced by the sales agent to purchase insurance, which, normally i never do, however, the blackberry is $350, so i thought, I would get it and keep it for a couple months, just to make sure nothing is wrong with it. I don't want to have to get a new one afterall... I also asked for a 1 year subscription to the number. I don't like being tied to a service at all, let alone for 2 years...
So... My blackberry, which I always keep in the pouch, is cracking. Not the screen, but the top 2 corners, whole chips are coming out and needless to say, I thought I would trade it in to get a new one.
That's when I called customer service (about porting one of my cell numbers to a land line) and I just happened to ask whether or not i have insurance. Come to find out, I did not!!! I was asked to get the reciept, which, surprisingly, I kept in the box. As it turns out, the guy, who apparently doesn't work there anymore, didn't sell me insurance!!! Not only that, the bastard renewed me for 2 years, and gave me the upgrade price for 1 year...
I was furious, but ofcourse, I didn't unleash my fury on the (very pleasant and peppy for 9am) customer service rep. She mentioned that I go back to the store and talk with the manager. I asked her if she thought that would help, she was optimistic as she has done that same thing before, and they were very friendly about it.
So... I went back to the store, I took my phone, and asked immediately (but in a pleasant tone) to speak with the store manager. "Oh, he only comes in on Saturdays" was the response i got back.... ... Saturdays huh? I was NOT happy. However, i asked if there was anything they could do, and they said that they help customers with problems all the time (2 of them). When i explained my dillema, they said that there is nothing that the store manager could do, other than to tell me to call customer service. I had mentioned that i had already called customer service and that they mentioned to go to the store. They didn't seem phased by this, repeated that there is nothing that they, or the store manager could do, and that I am "out of luck"
I walked out (i couldn't complain to the store manager who was not there!) and I went home and called customer service again. I, once again, explained everything to them and they apologized for the inconvienence, and advised me to register a formal complaint, which I normally never do, but I made an exception in this case.
*note to self* never go to a tmobile store, and ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS review the contract...
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
hello all
Nothing to report... just checking in... I am still alive, and all is well... for the moment!!
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