Today, My world shattered a little

I got a call today around 5pm-ish from my boss at work. Normally, when he calls at all it's because he wants to check in and tell me about a new assignment i am going on.

This was different... his tone was different, and i put two and two together and made mud...

I have been given 2 weeks notice to figure something out and get on a project, or I am gone on Nov 14th.

I am panic stricken... I don't have much savings to begin with, and my mother yelled at me for that... but there is a real possibility that things in life may take a STRONG downwards turn that is definately not good.

My mom, despite yelling at me, is very supportive and is pretty sure I will land on my feet, I personally am not as confident.

I was on the verge of tears, and while I have calmed down enough to be able to write this entry, the depression and anxiety I feel are ever present... i was hungry tonight, but didn't bother to eat...

I am down, i feel like i need someone to come and hold me and tell me it's going to be better...

Despite the fact that i feel like an emotional wreck, i am "thinking" clearly and have started contacting all of my contacts i can think of.

The thing that really upsets me more than anythin else, is that, out of all of my friends, I have always been the most stable. Kinda the rock that ends up helping my friends in their times of hardship. As selfish as it is for me to want to continue this role, I just don't know what I am going to do moving forward. I am afraid that I will have to find a new job in another state, and have to move.

Ultimatey, I have to do what I HAVE to.