broken promises

i wasn't going to write this down... but one of my friends suggested i do so, so here i am.

i moved up to NJ, relocated my entire life for a promise. a promise that if i moved up here, the company that i am consulting with was going to hire me on full time, warranting my whole move.

Up until yesterday, I know for a fact, that was the intention of my boss. But through a conversation that kinda turned the way of my employment, it was blurted out that, infact, while he still would like to hire me, he was more or less told no from his superiors. The company is on a hiring freeze and all headcount that was planned for this year, has infact been pulled.

I have been through this exact situation before, with the exception of having to move my whole life. I was living with my parents at the time and the company was a major pharmaceutical corp. who said they would love to hire me, but, never got around to it. my time was limited there and it caused me to look for a job, which eventually, moved me to atlanta. that wasn't a bad move, but it's not a move that, at the time, i would have taken. (i do NOT regret that move)

so now, it's resume time again, I have to get my ducks in a row and get moving to find another job. While i was told my contract would most likely be extended for a couple months, it's life getting a 3 month notice on your job. I could let the time slip by, or try to do something in the mean time....



also... on the subject of broken promises, but in a different vane, i have had contact with several people lately, who have been courting me online, who have dropped off the face of the earth. If you read the previous posts in this blog, you know that is my biggest pet peeve!

As i get older, i find myself getting more cynical of these people and just not caring. I should know better than to trust anyone online. and i don't trust them persay, but i am certainly not as amiable to them anymore... I guess with old age comes bitterness, though some might call it wisdom and experience. I do not want to be a jaded old queen like SO MANY OTHERS i know.