lately

i have been feeling pretty lonely lately. i am not quite sure why... well... i know logially WHY i am lonely... but not sure why i have been feeling it more than usual.

I have been trying to get people interested in dating me, but most everyone i approach starts out interested, but ends up aloof. I don't know whether it's because i am trying to put myself out there?

I have gotten into a bad habit lately... going onto dating/hookup sites and browsing profiles, but not sending messages out. I wait till someone sends me a message. My way of thinking is that if they send me a message... they are interested... somewhat... but... the pattern of indifference seems to develop after chatting a little bit. not sure why...

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on a different note... i noticed that my memory seems to be slipping lately. I have been haing issues getting my words out and problems remembering simple things... I don't know what's happening... but i don't like it.