Saturday, January 12, 2008

be careful what you wish for

sometimes i wonder if i am not fooling myself when i try and figure out what i want. Do i really want a boyfriend, or is it somethingi am just talking myself into? in other words... i don't know if it's really better to be single for me. I have been without a boyfriend for so much time in my life... i don't really know if i should have one.

The other thing is... my mom mentioned that she thinks i should have a boyfriend that's equal to me. I have always found guys that were younger than me, or made less money than me, but i don't have a very high opinion of myself. I never have...

so do i really want what i think i want? or am i just saying that to try and convince myself...?

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